Haven't been updating the blog after a long time... have been real busy with work. After an atomic bomb strike our world economy, it has gone real bad and many of us ( innocent employee ) has been tortured with salary cut and retrenchment. My work place too have been affected with such bad economy crisis. Stress has been continuously adding in my daily life. What more can i do in such bad economy? Being the youngest in the company will be the first victim to retrench. In order to have a monthly income, I got to work harder and to upgrade my sales performance. But faith have been running low...
Why am i having all these nonsense? Arent im supposed to enjoy my uni life right now? Arent im supposed to gain knowledge and make alot of friends back in uni? i really envy all of my friends and those who i have known. they are praticaly enjoying their uni life. Throwing their happy faces in the facebook , some with their graduation ceremony and with flowers during their graduation. I felt soooo..... useless... sad...jealous... why cant i even experience all these? Though i might not be that smart to enter a fancy uni/ college... but i reallly hoped i have the experience to do so..especially to be able to experience of studying abroad. sigh....
After SPM in the yr 07, i dont even dare to think of it... i felt so miserable right now....
I dont mind working at an early age...i dont mind forcing myself to be happy with my work. Pushing myself to work harder and to like my *current* job. i dont think leading tours is my type. I find it very F A K E .... all of us are just desperate for money $$.. so we need to put on a mask to do customer service... and this is my daily routince. working from 9 am until late evening like 7 or 8 ... what a life!!!
After a day of stress , i hope i have a comfort hug from my beloved.... only you can take away my stress after a long day. i long for your outstretched arms welcoming me back home... i have missed so much of you in my life... I cant wait for you to be back ...im longing to share every story through out these yrs..i have so much love to give which have been bottled up inside for a very long time... when will you be back to free me from it? :(
the closer i am to you the happier i am...
Thanks for all the support baby... =) Irregarless in which way...I'm so afraid that I am not a match for you...
I hope this will be the last time im nagging about my life...it isn't perfect at all...
Anyway, Happy Easter day!!
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