Happy birthday to my dearest boyfriend!

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It's like a dream

Arrival hall (KL sentral)
This is where i picked you up on 23rd Aug. Now, I am sitting here alone... not waiting for someone but to recall how delighted i was when i saw you walking towards me with a smile on your charming face. sigh, time flies and now i am left alone again. How i wished that i am now sitting, waiting for your arrival. The atmosphere and feelings are still so clear in mind. Presence of you made my life so much brighter. so much of happiness and laughter. Now that you are gone... everything seems so dim in my life. Though we argued alot for the past few weeks... im sorry...

ARGH!!! no mood to work and no mood to lead tour!!!! WHAT TO DO!
I want my bf back!

This period of happiness is just like a dream ... A dream that i didnt want it to end ...

last masterpiece of 2008

Pictures pictures!!!

Year 08 / sep / 21st

too little time

I remembered clearly that i wanted time to fly fast when i was at my young age ... about 10 yrs old. When i reach 14, i was so impatient to finish high school. Then comes 15 yrs old... I met my bf in high school ... got together happily until I was 17th, he needed to further his studies in The UK. I was well prepared and ready to accept the fact until he flew on that very day... cry like mad! Whatever it is, i still need to go through it. Sigh, have been this way until today... you are flying back to UK for your final year. I thought this time i will have the chance to go over with you... Nevertheless, have already prepared myself and feeling excited until my visa application got turned down. All my dreams was shattered and I didnt dare to think any further. Didnt want to pursue any further as I know it is just a waste of time. sigh... another disappointment. Now I am 20 and i felt like time is flying too fast. It was like I only see you for a week instead of a month.... was it too little time or time is just running fast? which is which?

I didnt want to go to the airport because I know i cannot control myself, tears and I will become emotional on all things. Im sorry and im not being a bad gf. I just couldnt bear the pain to see you go... to see you check in and walk down the escalator to the boarding gate. I do not know how many more years I have to wait or how long more i have to wait just to see you and to be able to feel you again .. IN REAL! Now I have to depend on the electronic devices. AIKS!

Here, I would like to express . . .
Thanks for everything ! Especially the amount of effort and money you have put in. I appreciate all of it and I hope I can do something better in future so that you will not think that im useless.
Plus,
Love that 1 week!!! Duration of 1 week is never enough for me!

MATTA fair is over... What a relieved... !!! work loads have been slowing down... hope to catch up with my friends soon.

Anyway, next destination will be to CAMBODIA + VIETNAM. Twin countries . . . Interesting!!! Yet .... stressful... sigh. I need some energy to boost up my confidence! never been leading tour for quite some time... sudah berkarat... and now I have to shine it back... don have the urge to go anymore... yikes! bad sign bad sign... I need support! =(