Let's talk about journey of life.well,my life is in a mess! sigh..i dont have a happy family back home.My dad is alwiz nuts and he is a real stingy person.moreover,he usually gets on our nerves.not usually but almost everyday.that really irritates me alot and i chose not to stay at home.
I grew up with my grandparents in Kampar and i really enjoyed my childhood life until i moved back with my parents.In the beggining,everything went well and we still have laughter and some fun back home.this ended few years back when i and my dad had a big fight and eventually,we din talk to each other until this very day.OH well,nvm that..that doesnt matters to me now.
My mom on the other hand is a very active women and a very ambitious women.She always have her plan for future and i hope someday one of her plan DO work out!(coz towards the end,her plan alwiz din work out) *tee hee hee*
i have a very low self esteem myself.i think im not good enough.i cannot compare to other ppl who are smart and have highly education qualifications.what i have?juz a diploma on international air transport and can only lead tour.nothing to be proud of at all.i dont even dare to let anyone know what sort of qualifications i have.im so shy to tell out.not even confident or happy with wat im having now.it's not that i dont want to study or being foolish on laziness..i juz dont have the chance to.THANKS to that evil grandmother(father side) saying tat gals don need to study so much and tat i will waste my father's money.WHAT THE HELL! hate all of them.doesnt make any SENSE!! May God bless them!(feel the sarcasm)
Now,my mom wants to migrate to US next year.i do not know whether this time will it be real or it's juz another fantasy or HOPE of her own.she asked me to plan and decide whether i want to follow her or roam this world by myself.i alwiz have those freedom.i am lucky to have those freedom to do anything i want or go anywhere i want or be anywhere i want to be.Is this an advantage or disadvantage??Sometimes,i juz wan to be a little girl where mummy decides everything for me,dont have to worry or stress on decisions that i have to make.anyway, we will see how things gonna be later and currently im busy preparing documents to apply for US visa.wish me luck for the interview. by the way..this is suppose to be a secret..none of our family members know about this.Dont let the cat out of the bag!!
Which part of US will i be?would it be MIAMI FLORIDA??Will this succeed anyway?Only God knows... =)
Have a nice day ppl...
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hey sis,
i dun wan u to think of urself like that..education n certs may be important in life but to me all that is just a piece of beige paper proving nothing in reality..
what matters in life is what we have been through all this years..the experience..they teaches lessons in life..teaching us how to stand up after we fall..teaching us how to correct our mistakes when things go wrong..teaching us to have confidence in ourselves..having diploma doesnt mean that u r useless n having a degree doesnt mean that u're smart..
an example,i was offered a post as a videographer for a camp..at 1st i was really afraid that everything will go wrong n i will disappoint those who had faith in giving me this post..but later on,i thought "y not try?"..if i try i get to learn something new but if i dun try,i dun gain anything..it was a good opportunity for me to build my confidence too..frankly i have low self confidence..i used to be afraid of these n that..but along the way,i had friends teaching me how to be brave n to face myself..tell myself that i m capable of it..life is all about learning sis..in fact,we learn from each other too..
about ur mum migrating,dun care whether is it gonna come true..tke the chance and if it works,i'll be happy for u but if it doesnt,u will still have me in malaysia..worst come to worst,we go to australia together..we can study together..if not u can work there too...
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