your love is all i wanted

haih...everything has gone.everything has been taken away from me juz like tat.it juz happened within minutes.why didnt u stop me?
i think u got the wrong msg from me.i dont mean that i don trust u or have no confidence in u.Of course i do...
i juz want to know why u act differently?after wat happened...u dont treat me normally or as usual.i felt a difference so tats y i asked u why coz i thought u were still angry of me.unfortunately,this lead to a worse situation...haih.
what difference?first of all,i replied u a very long email and i asked u many things inside..and all u replied was juz a very short one.moreover,i "manja" u inside the mail but i get nothing in return.no response...even when we chat today.i asked u,have u ever wondered what is it that kept us going on?u gave me a cold reply which is dunno.then,i told u it was the sweet memories we had together,those sweet moments and love that we gave to each other that kept us going on.in the end,i dont get any reply from u.all u said was it isnt a question.yes,it isnt a question but u juz dowan to say anything?at all?u wasnt like that!haih...u would have said something that flattered my heart.u would have said something or a response.haih...u changed or me?
i felt something was wrong...i juz wan to know wats wrong and work things out.is that wrong?u said i am sensitive..i admit that i am indeed sensitive but cant u explain to me?i juz wan to know why u have been like this after wat happened.i know what u are going to tell me.u will say "i've alr assure u many times and u juz won trust me" i know u would have say that.i trust u!!i truly do!
u have misunderstand me.u thought that i dont trust u ,u thought i was unsure whether u love me or not... is not what u think!sometimes,i felt some difference and i juz wan to assure everything is alright.i cant juz leave it like this right?even if u are sad...i cant juz leave u like this isnt it?i wan to share everything with u!are u going through stress?i really think u have misunderstand me.im juz being observant??i want to be there for u like no one else before.u are special to me...so maybe im more sensitive in everything?
besides,we are so far apart...haih.if im with u now,we would have settled everything!or this prob will never arise at all.
MY WISHES FOR NOW
~ i dowan to break up with u
~ i want u to wait for me to go over so that i can stay with
u and be with u as long as i can
~i want time to go fast so i can go over to uk and be with u
~ i want u to share everything with me..talk to me...

my life will be meaningless without u...all i wanted is ur love.
one thing which i never get enough is ur love.(u know that)

now,i hope everything will be ok.haih..i really dont know what will happen next.all i can do now is pray hard...i know u very well.once u think negatively,everything will be gone.i almost lost u once and i dowan it to happen again.i've tried how it feels like and it was terrible!i felt like dying...
i really dowan it to happen again...i really hope u will think things again...

i hope u wont leave me...
im sure u know why i put this balloon as a picture.theres a msg written on a paper,tied up with the balloon and we let it go on that very special night.it really meant alot to me...